Some Things Are Changing

Lately, I have noticed changes. I have noticed that parts of me are taking on a different shape. Thank You, Lord. I have noticed that it takes longer to get from one spot to another. Thank You, Lord. I have noticed that it takes some things longer to heal than before. Thank You, Lord. I have noticed that thinking has changed more to the future than ever before. Thank You, Lord.

In all this, I have to admit that sometimes fear comes over me. At other times, sadness comes over me. And, then, JOY comes over me. I am still trying to figure out all that the JOY includes. Now, to me, JOY is loving the Lord and worshipping Him. JOY is knowing Who I serve. JOY is knowing that I am His and that will never change. But, there is more to it than that and I don't know what that is. I do know this - that the Lord, through His Holy Spirit, will let me know.

It's hard to believe that I have made it to be 63 years old. Whew!!! I'm grateful. I enjoy and embarce it. I am not ashamed of it and appreciate each day that I have of it. Don't get me wrong, I have days when I wonder why my JOY is not where it ought to be but I know this is a trick of the enemy. In all my struggles, I am aware of the presence of God. Sometimes, it seems to me that He is far away, another trick fo the enemy. But, He always steps in to remind me that He is here. I have wondered if this happens to others my age who notice things changing in their lives.

I know that anything I have, anything I have done, anything that will come to me in my life is not because of something I have done on my own. I know from where my help comes. So, I take the changes I am noticing with great appreciation and ask God to continue to show me other changes. I ask the Holy Spirit to continue to be with me throughout all my days.

The biggest change I am asking of God is our relationship. I am praying for it to grow beyond anywhere I would have ever believed. I am looking to God for this change. I am anticipating a relationship unlike any I have ever known.

Lord, You know my heart. You know why the tears fall just at the thought of You. You know how I cherish our time together. You know my struggles, changes, ups and downs. You know just Who I need. I know Who I need and that is You. Loving You, Lord, is easy. Thank You for loving me because I cannot imagine that is easy to to but then again, You're God.